We are getting ready to wind down for the night. Last night, it was just Little Man, his baby chick, and me in bed. Yes, we slept with the baby chick in the bed. He said it was okay because the baby chick was on his side of the bed. When he first got her he named her I don’t know. She comes to her name which is good and he is gentle with her as she is with him. Even with being sick little man just wants to be an amazing kiddo and he knows when I have bad days. He always tells me how much he loves me. He will just look at me, give me hugs, and say how much he loves me. It’s an amazing feeling before they start not liking you as a parent. He is asleep and currently watching The Bear on Hulu. I just heated some brisket and am thinking about the last few nights. Last night was kind of really hard. I cried for a few hours. Just thinking about the past. In August of 2020, I lost my fiancé. I am currently where I was when I lost him. 5 years have gone by and it still takes my breath away. I have panic attacks still just not as bad. He was supposed to come down with me so we could get away for the weekend. It is a bit stressful but it is still in the past. I never used to talk about things and I think it’s time I start to open up slowly. They say that time heals all wounds physically maybe but mentally and emotionally not so much for me. After his funeral, I had a miscarriage. I went to the same hospital that they had taken him to when they had declared him gone. Well, goodnight everyone.
Honesty is Key
Personal experience that life has offered. I would love to be able to create a safe family place here for everyone to open up free
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This is my first post. I’d love to create a safe space for you to vent and build a family-like community. I would like these experiences to be relatable and to interact and keep in touch along with what’s on the post being brutally honest. Being a Scorpio I feel like I see things in a different light. I can feel when the energy changes that people have which then puts me into an overthinking mode. When I start to overthink I see a clearer picture. The older I have gotten I see through people it has made me a bit cold-hearted but I would rather be cold-hearted than have my son go through things I have gone through growing up. He deserves the best and all of my heart. I do have health issues that we are working through. After my son was born prematurely in 2022 we went through me having a really bad car accident right after he turned 1 in 2023. A few months later I found out I had thyroid cancer. The following month I had my thyroid completely taken out. The swelling in my throat never subsided after that. Another few months went by and I had back surgery to help fix my pain in my back from the car accident. My L1 and L2 had compression fractures I had a kyphoplasty done on both of the compression fractures. Here it is 2025 I’m still having issues with it. At the end of 2024, I was hospitalized after having back-to-back seizures they had to sedate me so they could run tests. I was sedated for 3 days and was released 2 days later. I was diagnosed with epilepsy. I am now seeing a new doctor and pain management they want me off my medication that I’ve been on since 2023 for my autoimmune stuff I have going on. I would love to be able to connect with everyone on here.
Honesty is Key 