Honesty is Key

You know you have a good night when your kiddo keeps waking up just to tell you that they love you and cuddle up with you and goes right back to sleep. I know it makes my heart melt, but he isn’t able to depend on anyone but me. Im his rock as being its just been us. I don’t want him growing up and getting attached and then the people leave out of our lives. So with that being said its us against the world and my son comes first. He has amazing male role models to look up to and spend time with. He most definitely doesn’t deserve to have his heart broken at this young of an age or feel like he’s not enough because his father hasn’t ever been around. I always tried to make it work always even if it ripped me to pieces. Our peace is all that matters now due to it still being just us. I make what we have work even though he still helps me quite a bit. Our thing was going live on TikTok and making dinner or breakfast or even just dessert for that night. It made him feel important and our routine was everything. We have a way smaller kitchen now, and he doesn’t have his safe ladder anymore. A lot has changed in the last year in a half but we are happy and very peaceful. No yelling in the house, if he gets in trouble he will throw his fits and we sit down and talk after.

We have quite a few new routines in the way we do things. Little man is still learning all the way around we are taking a different point of view now. The past hasn’t ever really been easy but we are learning together. He doesn’t push my buttons like what he used to but it is what kids do is push buttons. I wouldn’t doubt that I push his buttons too. Like last night he went to bed at like 1900. I had moved him to the bed and he stayed asleep. I finally got done eating at 2200 then got in bed and went to sleep. I take my night medicine at 2000 so its 12 hours apart for my anti seizure medicine. He was up at 0700 this morning with me.