Honesty is Key

Good morning family the early bird does receive the worm. In this instance for me anyways getting up early and staying awake for the day makes me feel better even though I go to sleep earlier. Little man is awake now too which means he will sleep through the night again. So happy for being able to have a decent routine back. It is a nice thing to be able to have a routine down when you have a young kiddo. I know he is school ready and he has been in school before and he loved it and learned a lot. Im just a nervous wreck with him going back. all the things going on with schools now a days it’s everywhere. Even homeschooling is great if you can find groups with home schoolers in your area.

We made some breakfast this morning, he wanted eggs and chocolate milk. Im so excited he woke up and wanted to eat off the bat. he woke up due to the rain waking him up. Going to have to try and get some laundry done here in a bit when it quits raining. Im super excited about today I still have a few symptoms from withdrawals but its been a week as of Wednesday of last week. Now it goes day to day. Im just happy and blessed we have another day.

As for a little about going back to the beginning. My relationship with my fiancé that started it was in 2014 when I worked with him it was on and off till 2020 when he proposed in March. I was tired of my job interfering with my home life. I was a correctional officer for over a year. I followed my heart and moved in with him again. Most relationships arent easy but we tend to manage them well. He passed in August of 2020 and that’s when my life fell apart. People said they were family when they really weren’t. His funeral was in September when I had my second miscarriage with him. It was hard grieving both passings and then I set cameras back up. I wanted to know what was going on in the apartment we lived together in. I saw in one of the videos the camera took where he was sitting on the edge of the bed with his head down in disappointment. He passed while I was at my moms he was supposed to come with me but he said he had to work. He decided to stay home and he passed of fentanyl toxicity. It has become a little easier to talk about the more I have talked about it.